This week our task if to work on our monologues. I am not going to be able to work this week in my monologue because I am going on a trip, however I think before going away, I should have a basic idea of all the aspects I have to take in consideration for my performance. I already have a rough draft of my monologue, however I do have to figure out what to do about the sounds, lightning, tableau, status, movement, voice, and physicality. I do have some ideas for this.
To begin with, I have this image of the scene I want to portray that depends basically on the lights. I want the scene to be very gloomy, depressing, and weak; because that's how Christine Collins feels at that moment. I want the scene to have very little light. The small light there is, I want it to be a very dim yellow light that comes kind of from the top and shoots at the back part of myself, so that my head if illuminated and the borders of my body is illuminated. This will also give a little bit of light to my face so that you are able to see my face, however it would be very dark. This very sad and gloomy environment will not only help me to get the audience in the mood, but it will help me portray metaphorically the emotions that are going through Christine Collins at that moment. On top of this, it will help me get inside my character because it will indirectly help me to evoke those feelings in the words.
In addition, the lights will help me depict the status of Christine Collins, which is also correlated with the main issue I am talking about. The dimmed and weak lights will also help me to portray how people (men) saw women at that time; weak. In the 1920's women where still being oppressed by men. If they got raped, well she was looking for it for dressing that way. They where still being treated as a minority and their opinions didn't really count. Even though the global issue of my monologue is the lack of justice and lack equality by the police at that time, which is still seen now a days; you can see this issue also in the oppression of women because they too where taken away their right of being listened and of being equal citizens. So the status of women (Christine Collins), which is weak basically, can be also seen in the lights. Moreover, I think the status is very significant for my monologue, because Christine Collins is not only representing the oppressed women of that time, but her feeble personality was very shocking for me when I saw the movie. Angelina Jolie portrays her as a very timid, weak, oppressed, and kind of coward human being. However, she wasn't, but at the same time she was; that's what I like about this characters, because some of her personality traits contradict each other. She was a very coward person and you are able to see this when she doesn't stand up or shouts back when the police man is insulting her and saying that she is a liar and that she is avoiding her responsibilities as a mother. But at the same time, she does stand up in some way to the rules of society of that time by fighting for he rights and going out to the public so that the police re opens her case and starts looking for her son again. She doesn't quit and she keeps trying to be listened by doing whatever she can to make the police to listen. So she is a very round realistic but yet not easy to decipher character, and that's what I like about her, and that is what pulls me to act her our, it is quite of a challenge. Her outer personality portrays her as a coward person, however deep inside she keeps fighting for her son. Additionally, it is very important for me to portray her low status for me, so I want to show her as a very timid oppressed and hurt person that looks easy to manipulate. However, through her words and repetitive statement of "he is not my son", I want to show her inner strength and her persuasion to find her son which will also show the love she felt for him.
Moreover, I think the movement is connected with the status. Because I want to show a very low and shy status, I want to use as little movement as possible. I will be standing in one place the whole time, so it is not distracting and I think it will help me to make the scene much more intense in general. I want to show how retrieved Christine Collins was so kind of hunched down with the head looking quite down; as if she was afraid to look the people in the eyes. I am not sure if I want to be holding an umbrella, because having one does help with the idea of hunched down as if you where to exaggerate it completely she will turn out in a fetal position. I don't want her to look like an old lady; but kind of hunched down to show her shyness and how scared she is. The umbrella really helps with this illusion and it also helps with her timidness. The other idea if to just have my hands together in front of my body; however doing some nervous twitching with my hands, which I have practiced before and it also portrays a shy almost traumatic personality which could also work.
I don't know about the sounds yet. I don't think I am going to use any sound at all because I want all the attention to be on Christine Collins and on her story that she will be telling. However, when it comes to her voice, I want to show her timidness and oppression through her kind of high pitched voice; however a very slow, delicate and low voice. By her voice being low and delicate, it will show how she is actually afraid of speaking her mind because it wasn't something that women did at that time, and after all the things that the police has done to her, it makes sense that she is afraid of what they will do to her.
In this specific monologue, the use of pauses is extremely important. The story in general is extremely shocking and intense, and if you use paused in the right moments, it can help you to make the performance in general much better and much stronger. Not only will the pauses help to make the scene much more intense, but it will build up in the idea that Christine Collins is very shy and is extremely afraid of telling the world what has been happening. One very important pause in the monologue that I remember is the part where Christine says: "They told me and all of you that this boy was my son. He is not my son." The period makes the sentence much more intense and shocking than if I had said: "The boy that they brought is not my son". Not only is it much more strong but it is much more direct and impacting.
Finally, I already have all this aspects organized and in consideration. I still have the ask the teacher about tableau because I don't really understand what it is and how I can use it in my monologue. I do have to work on editing my monologue and on centering it on a main idea because it is too disorganized now and there are too many ideas mixed together, so I have to work on it.
In this picture of Christine Collins you are able to see her very weak and oppressed personality. You are also able to see her sadness. This is what I want to show: